last night i had a great message recieved to me. my preacher was talking about how we think we experience God every wenesday and so on....and we think we do and we get a little jittery inside and what not....but that isn't the real thing. all this time i thought i was feeling God all the way man and i wasn't i was just getting the left overs from people who were really expericing God right then. you know how you go up and down with God...like you leave him then come back then leave then come back...? well i kept doing that...and i would never change when i said i would....but last night that has come to an end....no wonder i hate the way i'm living....cause i'm not living an example of God. i just want to know more and more about God everytime i hear about him. and i just wanna be the living example that i can be. ...but umm i just thought i'd share this with you....i love you all very much and can't wait till i can see you ALL fridayy!